Friday, January 12, 2024

It Makes Me Physically Ill

I think it is the arrogance and pure evil that has me and I am sure many others, completely off kilter.  The arrogant entitlement of these zionist who no matter where they lay their head, plant their feet or make up their mind that something or someplace is theirs they just take it. They take it mind you by any means necessary. They lie, they steal, they burn, they bomb, they kill, they maim and they do it all in the name of privilege and God. It makes me physically ill. It makes my physically ill to not only understand but witness their inhumanity as these hateful people who indoctrinate their children from birth to work tirelessly to maintain the status quo of white majority, white mindset, and in their mind white supremacy. 

It makes me physically ill.

It makes my physically ill that world powers will stand in solidarity, shoulder to shoulder to ensure these zionists' remain in power.  

Innocent children be damned they will shoot you in the street, bomb you in your home and if they can't  reach you there, they will block your food, your medical care, your water, your electricity, your heat any thing that sustains your life. And when still you rise they will drop white phosphorous on you and burn you to the bone. All so they can maintain the status quo of white majority, white mindset, and in their mind white supremacy.

It make me physically ill.  It makes me physically ill that people around the world raise their voices, stand up and say this is wrong and yet a handful of white men can sit in a room and decide the fate of the world.

It makes me physically ill.

Friday, January 5, 2024

Allah Yusa'iduna

I just don't know where to begin.  When you think as a people we cannot go any lower you come to realize there is yet another level below the bad we are living.  

The world is standing by as Israel commits genocide in Palestine. 

I am not an antisemite. 

I am anti zionist just as 

I am anti nazi, anti white supremacy and just as I am 

anti racist.  

I have taken the time to discern the difference between Judaism and Zionism. 

I have taken the time to understand the difference between the religion which is 3000 years old  and the political movement that is 150 years old and a transformation to nationalism started by non religious Jews capitalizing on the Star of David to take over the land of Palestine and, whose actions and positions conflict directly with the teachings of the Torah. 

Many, who only pay attention to world politics when it is a breaking broadcast by the media,  think this conflict started with an out of the blue terrorist attack in Israel on October 7th. In fact that attack was  simmering for over 76 years as Palestinians have been pushed, shoved and bombed out of their own homes and country.  When Palestinians had their land segmented under colonialism and portioned out to refugees from Europe only to have those refugees decide they deserve all the land and have since 1948 when Israel declared their independence done so by oppressing the Palestinian people. 

This Israeli war on Palestine will set the political tone and actions on this planet for the remaining 76 years of this century.

Allah yusa'iduna

God help us

Saturday, December 30, 2023

Silent Complicity


When United States citizens demonstrated they were okay with children being slaughtered in schools, the gun lobby was emboldened, and we have had mass shooting after mass shooting ever since.

When trump became the racist voice of America his believers fell in line and took on the mantle of his demented agenda, an insurrection attempt followed and even now with all his crimes and his documented commitment to ruling as a dictator he is still the republican front runner for president.

When cops in this country realized they can kill Black children, women and men with little to no meaningful consequence, living while Black is officially a health hazard.

When women exercised their voices and chose to control their reproductive rights, the ultra conservative supreme court appointed by trump took those basic human rights away.

When Black folks started voting and showed we can make a difference in outcomes the move to suppress the Black vote and gerrymander voting districts took on a whole new life of their own.

When white folks became uncomfortable with their children learning the racist history that some of them and their ancestors participated in, they have been working tirelessly to rewrite history – slavey was a career development move. And what they can’t rewrite or white wash they work to ban teaching at all levels of education.

When folks took a stand to live their lives as their true selves the conservatives decided the LGBTQ+ community should not have that right and moved to ban treatments, crminalized their sexuality and rolled back their civil rights.

When it appeared that the playing field might eventually become level for non-white folks and women, war was waged on affirmative action and the supreme court took the first step by dismantling affirmative action in the college entrance process even though at least one supreme court justice clearly and directly benefited from the program.

When women and specifically a Black woman took on the leadership roles of "elite" white universities they were dragged before congress on the pre-tense of anti-semitism. And when the Black president of Harvard survived the attack from the rich white conservative whose life mission is to return Black folks “to their place” waged on under the pretense of plagiarism which by the way Harvard had already investigated and cleared her of any wrong doing.... and even the attackers wife a former MIT professor clearly committed and was charged with plagiarism and oh, also had a connection with epstein (he donated $$$ to her lab and she provided him with a sculpture) but that was all money washed and disappeared.....

And when it seemed as a country that we had hit rock bottom and we could not go any lower the United States, Joe Biden specifically who has pledged unwaivering support to zionist israel for decades and even undermined Obama's peace efforts in the region while throwing Hillary under the bus outwardly and singularly is supporting Israel’s genocidal war against the Palestinians. In 90 days beginning October 7, 2023 over 22,000 Palestinians have been slaughtered with upwards of 70% being children and women. This is in response to a terrorist attack that took place that day that killed 1200 Israelis and brought into world view the fact that Palestinians have been living under apartheid and oppression for 76 years. Banned from living and moving freely in their own country.

So. What does this have to do with Black and Brown people in this country (US)? Do you say it is not our business, it is a Middle-Eastern thing. It is not anything that will ever happen here, not in this day and time.

Sit with this for a moment.

Think through what was done to the indigenous folks in this country, diminishing their tribal land rights, sovereignty, and having a say in land and resource issues. The same country enslaved Africans to build their country and economy and dehumanized them every chance they had, treating Black human life like chattle. From post Civil War to the 1950s over 100 thriving Black communities in this country were burned to the ground simply for existing and their Black citizens prospering. Once the communities were destroyed their land was illegally appropriated by white folks. 4400 Black folks, men, women and children were lynched in that same period.

Do you see what has happened each time the envelope has been pushed and the morality and humanity is tested... Once they see how far they can go they push to the next level.

Once the genocide in Palestine is accepted and normalized folks supporting these actions will again be emboldened and, if you are a person of color or an ally in this country and you sit in silence as the US supports unencumbered genocide you are complicit in allowing the newest foundation to be set for what these same folks want to carry out here... Next...

Tuesday, November 14, 2023

Taking Stock

 I am blessed. I have completed 67 revolutions around the sun and God willing I will begin my 68th shorty like literally in 45 mins.  The weird thing is I can still remember turning 16 when getting to my present age wasn't even a thought. This is not one of those let me go back and relive those years with everything I know now moments, those years remain intact and unchanged they were meant to be.  All the years from then to now have formed me and I like who I am. 

I thank God for every adventure, misadventure, unexpected venture and disastrous adventure, I thank Him for every success and every failure and all the ups and downs.  Oh the lessons I have learned. I used to believe that saying "youth is wasted on the young" but youth is exactly what it is supposed to be its own special social experiment. And now, at this age, I have the benefit of understanding somethings you can only get away with when you are young, probably because at that age you are either too naive or too oblivious to have things hit you the way they do as an adult.  As a kid and young adult I never really over thought what may or may not matter but then in my 30's and 40's I was consequence centered stuck on the what ifs.  My 50's were my politically correct era but as I ventured out, experienced my fake single years, lived in different states meeting different folks it all started to clear up for me and when I hit 60 I finally got to the I really don't give a fuck stage of my life.  Don't get me wrong I still care deeply about humanity, treating people well, equality and fairness and all those things but I was finally comfortable enough to do it authentically. The authenticity meant no more code switching, no more dressing a certain way or wearing my hair a certain way because it was expected, no more toeing the line to keep things smooth or thinking/rethinking how to make a statement as to not appear as the angry black woman or aggressive or ghetto. Getting to that point was liberating and I regained some of that youthful just do it or, better yet don't, attitude.  I am just sorry it took so long to reach that point but happy that I got there before leaving the c-suite and the board rooms so the young women of color that I supported and mentored could see it and experience it.  

Physically, mentally and spiritually I am in a good place. I am comfortable and don't feel the need or desire to please folks.  It is not my job to make you feel good. Folks really do need to do that for themselves.  I am who I am and I am  happy, pleased and thankful to begin my 68th revolution around the sun.

Peace.


Wednesday, October 13, 2021

November 3, 2015- January 6, 2020

 I went to a funeral once where the person while eulogizing the decedent stated their year of birth and their year of death and emphasized  all the living is in the hyphen.  When you look back to the presidential election which took place on November 3, 2015 which elected donald trump as the 45th president and look at where we are now as a nation, as a people, as human beings, all the destruction is in the hyphen.

donald trump ran his campaign and presidency baiting the base hatreds, fears, evils and prejudices of citizens (majority white folks) that felt maligned by the country and its government. White folks that felt like Blacks and immigrants were getting too big for their britches and as as result putting their (white) way of life at risk. Data shows that white folks will in the coming decades be the minority.  I believe their biggest fear is that as a minority they may be subjected to the behaviors that perhaps they exhibited when they thought all was right in the world and white folks ruled. Leading up to November 3, 2015 and for the four years following the United States of America saw rises in hate crimes, white folks who have apparently for years harbored these prejudices and hates were emboldened to display them every time an opportunity whether real or fabricated presented itself. Why? because the person in the White Hose spewed the same rhetoric. he brought voice and validation to what they always believed to be true, that if you are not white you are not right but rather lessor than. They wanted to "Make America Great Again".  One can only assume this meant the return to the pre-civil rights era.  A return to a time when white folks were unquestioned in anything they did. When blacks and browns and immigrants were overtly  disadvantaged, redlined, red circled, discrimintated against, kept out of housing, education, medical care, access to financing, good jobs all the things that are supposed to be the American dream.  A dream not always available to everyone.

The neo-nazi, white supremacist found a leader that "legitimatized" them.  They had to be legit, he was the president and he supported their views.  And with that it became open season on any non-white folks, non-european immigrants, queer folks and other white folks that didn't and don't share their beliefs and ideologies. 

This hyphen represents for me some of the darkest times in America.  

During this period it became open season on Black men, women and children.  The killings carried out by the very folks hired to protect the community.  Cops killed Black men and boys for just the mere fact that they were Black. The killings that brought this all to a head were George Floyd and Breonna Taylor.  George Floyd who was executed on national tv.  

There were scores ahead of him. And each time the victim was demonized, marginalized or criminalized all for the purpose of  rationalizing of the actions of the cops and the downplay of the severity of the killing epidemic. Social media was flooded with videos of white folks fighting with cops, pulling their weapons, stealing their cars and living to screw up another day. In contrast social media was also flooded with black men and women being pulled from their cars for traffic violations and being tased, and beaten and shot while cops yelled stop resisting to handcuffed folks that were either not moving or dead.  It became evident that Black Lives didn't Matter in this country and after Ferguson and Baltimore and other cities around the country that began to see the outright attack on the black community, the Black Lives Matter organization grew.  It was met with All Lives Matter and Blue Lives Matter all again looking to minimize and rationalize and discredit what was happening to people of color in this country.  But when a white cop put his knee to the neck of a black man laying on the ground, hands cuffed behind his back posing no threat and the cop kept his knee there on that mans neck for 7 minutes executing him on national tv it was the capping moment. Only to be followed by a group of white cops showing up at the home of a black woman Breonna Taylor and shooting her in her own own home. The attack was based on a no knock warrant looking for a person already in custody who did not reside at the home. And those cops walked away unscathed. There were so many other incidents before and many many after -folks accosted, brutalized, killed for jogging while Black, driving while Black, sleeping while Black, working while Black...Living Black. The summer of 2019 was filled with protest that were peaceful in nature but in some situations erupted into violence. There was rioting and looting. While that behavior was not the majority of activity that occurred it was what was primarily focused on.  What didn't get as much scrutiny were the infiltrators that started much of the violence. BLM was then labeled by trump  as a terrorist group while he referred to neo-nazis that killed a person in Charlotte as "very fine people".  trumps pied piper affect on his followers would keep this country in crisis from November 3, 2015 until January 6,2020 when his followers at his behest staged an insurrection, an all out attempt to overturn the 2020 election results which ousted trump from office.   

As I write I understand this is so high level it doesn't do justice to the full gravity of the situation and environment in which we had been living. It was 4 years of terror. 

Tuesday, October 12, 2021

Level Setting

 I am an inconsistent writer. 

I could point to many reasons but, why bother it is a fact and I own it.  

I will say this however, the election results in 2016 knocked the wind out of me; that election laid me flat, and all my energy went to making it through the next four years.  That fateful election night around 11 pm I went to sleep  hoping and praying Hilary would pull it out.  Then, 3 am the next morning my phone rang, it was my daughter fighting hard not to go into an all out panic attack. Her anxiety was at 9.99. trump had won, he would be the next president and, for a moment time stood still. In an instant the world changed.  

The day following the election I sat in my office with a co-worker; we cried. We cried because we were old enough to remember what life was like in the 40's, 50' and 60's. We are close enough to remember what life was like for people of color in this country under the laws of segregation and Jim Crow.  We knew the civility that folks seemed to practice even if they didn't believe in it would become the anomaly.  

trump during his campaign unleashed an emboldened form of hate that was not only accepted but hailed. As a result of his ignorant rhetoric, political positions and baseless lies as well as  his base supporters and their beliefs words like misogyny, xenophobia, racist/racism, sexism and neo-nazi would become part of our every day vocabulary. Our world and our politics which were by no means perfect leading to this moment and at times were polarizing were manageable. And managing in such an environment was not exactly the best of worlds but it was a landscape that was familiar and could be navigated. 

The top would be blown off this country and, for as much hate as we faced, there was a fire being lit. Activism was being (re) ignited. And amid all the turmoil of  unarmed Black men and women being killed in the streets Black Lives Matters strengthend and grew and folks of color would decide we didn't want the old "normal". We would no longer except the status-quo of working twice as hard for half as much.  Sorry but we will no longer be sorry.  While neo-nazi militia groups were growing and by Homeland Security standards would become the biggest threat to the United States outweighing the Taliban, people of color, LGBTQ+. women and our allies would organize forming and raising voices and votes.  A new type of politician would gain traction  and "The Squad"  would emerge.  Four congresswomen Reps. Ilhan Omar, Rashida Tlaib, Ayanna Pressley along with Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez would prove to be a force on the Hill.  Stacy Abrams would become synonymous with voter rights and,women of color through Ms Abrams' leadership and tenacity would literally change long held political seats from red to blue.

Within days of that election being called when donald trump was elevated to the highest position of power and leadership in our country and the world, you could feel the air shift and not for the better.  

Over the next 4 years we would be rudderless. More to come.

Life Practices at 60+

When I was about to turn 40 there was an article in ESSENCE magazine which outlined the 40 things a woman should experience or own by the time she turns 40. Then came along the movie The Bucket List which again was about listing out those things that you should do before you get too old, too broke or too consumed to experience. So, now that I am getting closer to 70 than 60, and have (so far)survived the coronavirus pandemic my priorities have changed. And, as we have all come to realize tomorrow is not promised it means living in the moment, being present and actually experieincing the experience. So,  I no longer look to check off a  40 by 40 list  or a bucket list but i have a few life practices that I try to incorporate into my every day life....
1.  Embrace retirement;
2.  Take care of my health - physical, spirtitual and mental
3.  Love on my family
4.  Practice my yoga and meditation
5.  Declutter my closet, drawers and home
6.  Watch a movie I can watch over and over and still find funny 
7.  Watch a movie I can watch over and over and still cry at the sad parts
8.  Find my happy place and go there often
9.  Sunday dinners with the family
10.A warm and welcoming home