Friday, October 8, 2010

A Bullet to the Back

Another young son dead
a bullet to his back
another to his head

He was not a stranger
He was one we knew
grew up with my children
they loved him true

Was it wrong place at the wrong time
Too much weed
Too much wine

Was it a good time
gone bad
that has left another
community sad

Does it matter
how it happened
the real question
is why

Why are we a city of cowards
settling every score with a gun

Why are we so weak
and not saying
enough is enough
this thing is done

Another young father dead
He was a good dad
that is what everyone said

We would rather remember him with a T shirt
R I P my friend
instead of ending this nonsense before
another uncle or cousin is dead

He was a pillar in the community
is what i read
another young black leader
dead

We gather in circles and pray
light candles
sing and sway

But yet this brings no one back
and prevents not anther
from winding up dead

STOP the violence, it's what the crowd said
but yet they protect and hide those that cause death
steal the life
leave children without their dad
taking the husband from
a loving wife

What is this sickness eating  us
from the inside out
this deep seated fear of
accountability
and doing what is right

Turn around people
see the light
what is happening in our community
it aint right

It can be stopped
It must be stopped
because
I can't take another young man dead
a bullet to his back
another to his head

Dedicated to Michael "Butter" Walker

When

I always wanted to stand
and recite my poetry
but

I had no rhythm to my words
no tune to my voice

So, i kept my words
buried in my mind
denied
my third eye

I always wanted to speak some
rhyming words outloud
while folks sat in their seats and
snapped their fingers
finding deep meaning in shallow words

I always wanted to be intense
thoughtful
deep
dot dot ditty dot damn deep

I wanted to flow like Nikki or
to mix rythym with ryhme and
political insight
like Gil

but

i
am me
not really deep
and
I just found out that to be intense
I must find my
third eye

remove the cataract, the veil and clearly focus

on

what is there
where...
there....

So,
when i gain the courage
i'll stand and spit
i'll be down wit it
i'll be hip

maybe i'll even be deep

dot dot ditty dot damn deep....

Journey

This has been a journey
to this place
standing here
face to face

No more protections behind
executive clothes
or
memos

Bare. Naked. Standing here
to recite my words
This has been a journey , for me
to this place

Dropping the image of what
i should be
to show who i am
allowing my words to flow
saying, speaking what is on my mind;
in my mind

What i feel
What i think
taking a stand on my beliefs

No longer worrying about being
politically correct, willing to speak
the truth

This has been a journey
to this place
This has been a journey which
brings me here
to
me

Thursday, October 7, 2010

There's No Fucking U in I

I will not tie up my self esteem and self worth in what you think of me.

I know I am a good person. I know that I am an attractive person. I know that I have a sense of humor. I know I am sensitive to the needs of others and I know sometimes I don’t care about their needs.

I know I am loyal. I know I am hardworking. I know how to put others first and I know how to take care of myself. I know how to say yes and I know how to say no. I know when to ask for help and I know how to offer help without being asked. I know I am committed to those things that are right. I know that I am generous. I know I am honest. I know when I am wrong and I know when I am right. I know how to take critical feedback and I know how to be tactful when giving feedback. I know I am smart and I know sometimes I can be downright goofy and simple.

I know I am ethical. I know I am versatile and I know at times I can be rigid. I know how to take control and I know how to let the reigns go. I know sometimes it is best to just back away and I know I don’t always do it when I should. I know I don’t like being controlled and I know sometimes it is inevitable. I know when I have been used and I know when and why I let it happen. I know how to listen and I know when listening is the only thing to do.

I know how to stand up for myself and I know when to stand down. I know I stand up for others sometimes when they don’t deserve it but I know it is the right thing to do.

I know all these things.

So I don’t need u to validate me, or tell me what I can or can’t do.

I know who I am and how to spell I.

There is no fucking u in I.